This is one of those days when I am questioning what the hell I was thinking with this 99 Days of Summer Blogging craziness. I got home later than usual, it’s almost 11 p.m. as I write this, and I just want to crawl into bed and read maybe a sentence or two in my current book (Modern Lovers by Emma Straub) before falling asleep. If I wasn’t committed to this goofy idea, I would not have even turned the laptop on tonight.
A few participants in this project have dropped out, which I completely understand. It’s hard, this blogging Every. Single. Day. There’s days — like this one — when you’re too tired to formulate a coherent blog post or don’t feel like you have anything worthwhile to say. Coming up with content ideas isn’t easy. It’s time-consuming. I get this — all of it. I’ve been there.
So, why am I still here? There’s the public accountability factor, of course: I told you I would do this thing, and because I did, I will damn well make sure that I do it. I’m notorious for starting and abandoning projects when nobody is looking, but when people are, that’s different. We’re funny that way, us humans. Who among us is OK with letting others know we’ve failed. We’re scared of what people will think of us if we quit ______. (Fill in the blank: our job, a marriage, an expensive degree program.)
I’m also still hanging in with this because I think writing every day for 99 days is absolutely an achievable goal for me. As of this Thursday, I’ll be 25% finished — and 25% of the way to Labor Day. I really, really need to get back in the swing of a regular writing routine and yes — this is helping. After this project is over, I may not write every day but I think it will definitely become easier to stick to a schedule, of sorts, maybe a few designated times per week. In the meantime, I don’t care if these posts make sense or if they’re not the most compelling posts you read in any particular day. They are the equivalent to free writes for me.
Another reason I’m still here is because of one of my original motivations, which might come as a bit of a surprise to some. I want to spend less time on social media. The hatriolic venom that is a constant presence is draining, along with everyone’s opinions. The news is depressing as hell and there’s no constructive dialogue to be had. I don’t need that kind of negativity in my life and neither do you. But I do like that this project has helped, at least a little bit, in refocusing my attention.
So, yeah, one of those days. Here’s to another 76 of them.